Tattoos

For the past 2 weeks iv been waiting for this day. The day I get my dagger tattoo on my thigh. It doesn't sound like a very feminine tattoo but it is as it has wings on it and a scroll that reads "every scar tells a story".

I have 10 other tattoos and all of varying pain. My first tattoo I got just over 10 years ago and it hurt badly, but maybe it was the fact that I was 17? im unsure I don't remember really the pain exactly, I just know it hurt! The next 8 tattoos were more or less pain free until the one I got on my chest. I could have cried and it was such a small tattoo. Then I get a massive fairy on my arm and during that I fell asleep - no pain at all.

So anyway back onto my dagger tattoo. The outline was fine but the blending of the shadows hurt really badly. Id say it got to the point that it was about equal with the sorest tattoo iv had. By the end my foot was twitching and I was just thankful it was over.

In the end I have yet another piece of art on me that I love. I see it as a positive self-harm. It hurts getting it. It makes me also not want any more pain for some time. Plus I have a lovely picture where I no longer want to cut!

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Discharged AGAIN

Please note; this story makes reference to suicide

Discharged by the CPN AGAIN! She is off on maternity leave. I have lost 3 CPN's to Illness, 2 to retirement and 2 to maternity leave and i have had to fight every time to get another one. I only seen this CPN once and now i get a phonecall ...

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Racing Heart

So iv been getting chest pains again - Palpitations. It was getting too uncomfortable. I called the Doctor and he gave me the medication back again. I didn't want to go back on it because it took me months to get off it. Now i am back to wh...

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