Quietly Does It

I am normally a very sociable person and after the nerves of meeting people for the first time (in any situation) I am normally a cheery, bubbly person. The past 3 days I have noticed it more than anything but I just cant be bothered.

On Tuesday at Derby training, although I wasn't skating I went along to help and an hour in and I left because I just didn't want to be around anyone and wasn't very talkative leaving a lot of awkward silences.

Yesterday when texting my girlfriend it was as if I couldn't be bothered to make an effort to continue any form of conversation she attempted to make.

Today at WtR group I just didn't feel like being there. Im not connecting with the people there. Normally I do but im just not. The only thing we seem to have in common is our problems meaning that's all we ever talk about - our problems! My life is too positive at the moment to be hung up on the negatives in life.
Also when in the car with mum today I barely spoke 2 words. Im lucky that with mum sometimes just the fact that someone is there is enough.

Things are looking up since my last post but at the same time different problems have arisen. Im just content to be alone just now.

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