Hunger Strikes

I need a meal! I have eaten nothing but chocolate and rubbish for the past 10 days because that's all I have at home. My girlfriends home is exactly the same. We have eaten everything from the freezer and only have a few tins of soup in the cupboard.

The funny thing is when you are short of cash or have none as a matter of fact you learn to live in a totally different way. we had £1 between us. out of that we got a 50p can of fray bentos meatballs in sauce (yeh the ones you eat uncontrollably as a kid) and a 17p loaf of bread. my girlfriend managed to make us toast and meatballs and it was actually really good. I can see me doing that again in the future.

I wonder why I am so exhausted. ERRRRR maybe its because I need at least 2 meals a day. Im living on cheese and sauce toasties! Theres only so much you can make with tins of hotdogs, meatballs, soup, a loaf of bread and cheese!

Even now I have no bread left, no meatballs, no cheese! I may have another 67p in my purse where I can go and get another toast and meatball meal but I have no petrol and I am so fat and unfit that I cant even walk to the supermarket to get what I need.

Im scared to tell my parents. iv borrowed money from everyone this week and I just cant ask for more. I cant get a loan.

I am so low, I cant even afford to feed my dogs. im really at rock bottom.

Help!

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