Positives

I keep having dreams with one of my teachers from high school in them and it prompted me to try and get in touch with him. He was the most supportive person in my life when I was at school and struggling with the death of my Mum, caring for my Dad and brother, depression, anxiety, self harm, and feeling suicidal. Looking back I took up so much of his time but he never seemed to resent it. He told me to keep in touch but I only saw him once when I hadn't left school for that long and it seemed like he wasn't interested in what i'd been up to. I think that now, after 11 years he might like an update.

What could I tell him? I've been thinking about it a lot and I know he'd want to know about the positives in my life. I can't really see positive things most of the time and it helps to think about what someone else would like to see me become and what they'd see as good in my life. So i've been trying to come up with some of the good things that have happened to me since I saw him as a struggling teenager 11 years ago.

I have an Msc.
I'm less socially anxious.
I have a house in an area that I enjoy living in.
I am less suicidal.
I rarely overdose.
I have a couple of close friends.
I've had jobs.

I think he'll be glad that he spent so much time supporting me to continue living when I was on the edge.

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