End of the line

It all ended on the longest day of the year, around 9pm I received a text message from her, saying that she was sorry and that she never felt the same way I did from the start. "I've completely led you on, none of this is your fault" "I've had unsure feelings from the start".
It turns out what she meant was, from the first time I spoke to her, she knew things would never work out and led me on for 5 months. It has only just hit me, I grew feelings for her over all that time, all the while she felt nothing. It doesn't matter now, I just wish that she had said no the first time I asked her out, it would have saved me a lot of mental anguish. After all, she almost killed me...
I brought this on myself, I'm the one that walked up to her on February 15th and asked her if she had gotten any valentines, which ended up with us going out twice and kissing once. I had no idea, I was naive, it was all too good to be true. My trust is shaken, I was hers but she wasn't mine. I made all of the effort and she just ignored me. I ended it on good terms yet I feel bitter towards her. I'll get over it like I usually do in the end, the end of the line.

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