Imaginary

Today I feel imaginary
A creature concocted in a dreamer's mind
Brought into being by thoughts and images
Existing only when thought of
Stop thinking about me and
I disappear

Today I feel like the world is imaginary
The people too
Brought into being by my
confusion and loneliness
Existing only when thought of
Stop thinking about the world, the people
and
they disappear
I am alone

Am I perceived or am I the perceiver?
Do I live in a controlled world?
Or a world I control?
What is reality?

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