Relapse - (This story mentions self harm)

Its 3.20am and I have found myself awake! AGAIN. I posted a few days ago saying that being up at this time isn't a normal thing for me but this time its a little different. You see it wasn't that I couldn't sleep. It was to do with Relapse.

The past couple of days I have been quite low in the evenings and thought about harming but I was good not to do it. I was very pleased with myself. I even had an amazing day with my mum. we went for lunch and bought plants for my garden and I even got them planted! So why did the day take a turn for the worst? I spent a lovely morning with my girlfriend and an amazing afternoon with my mum then evening comes and BAM! I find myself in hospital for stitches.

I am not going to discuss the ins and outs of my hospital visit as it wouldn't be helpful to anyone.

I have my Write to Recovery meeting in around 6 and a half hours! I am sure I will have plenty of time to ramble about my more personal stuff when I get it onto paper.

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