My Safe Place

Today I am "surviving"

I didn't sleep well last night which really isn't like me at all. I took my girlfriend to the dentist at 8am and when we came back we slept for another few hours before she had to get up for work. I was actually really looking forward to getting home. I just wanted a bit of time to myself, alone, in my own safe place. After all when you feel a little under the weather everyone wants to be in their safe place doing their comfort things.

On the drive home (about 25 minutes) I decided id pop into morrisons and get some shopping. I havnt been eating well recently so I decided id get stuff to make hotdog toasties. While in the supermarket I bought a load of cleaning stuff, possibly because I felt like my house was a state after watching obsessive compulsive cleaners last night. I decided today I would tackle the dishes and scrub the bathroom, which might I add I have done (not the dishes) but I have vacuumed.

I am unsure when I will next see my girlfriend. we have rarely been apart since we got together a few months ago. Shes working a lot plus making plans with friends so I kinda feel shoved out this week, I really shouldn't though because shes barely seen her friends since we got together. Its just my BPD and the attachment thing that's making my thoughts a little selfish and irrational.

OK I have rambled enough. I hope I survive the night alright!

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