2.30am Ramblings

Its 2.30am and I am awake. I havn't seen this time much in the past year. Since getting out of the psych ward last July and given new meds my sleep has rarely been a problem.

I have a blocked nose which has bunged up my sinuses and I feel like I have a cold. I am at my girlfriends house and have just had to get up and go through Into the living room and just watch some tv and browse the internet. I get very agitated if I am in bed for too long and cant sleep, especially if my nose is blocked.

Its times like this where I would be more inclined to self-harm, because I feel like crap and am agitated and upset. I kinda just wanna jump in the car and drive home but I have to take my girlfriend to the dentist in the morning as its at 8am (seriously what dentist works at 8am)

My skin itches. I cant stop scratching, its making my arms swell and scars hurt so much.

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