Inside and Outside

There is rumbling and rattling
inside this brick body
Not enough to fill the enclosure
Soon the body will be just a fatty lump
the cats can feed on
The body is a soldier
It follows commands
I will live my life as a shadow of everyone else
even when there is no light to create me

My voice is being suffocated by a pillow
I am wearing an internal gag
Sometimes I can talk around the gag
to certain people
Without those certain people
I am mute and destroyed inside

I am polluted
Too present
Immersed in anonymity
only online
In reality I am a danger to others
I should be locked in a room
No human contact
Scraps of food pushed through a hole in the door

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