Grateful

I had a dream that I was really suicidal and self harming and my support worker was trying to help me. He ran after me when I went to try and kill myself and he asked nurses and doctors to help but they all said 'tell her to pray.' Even when his shift had ended he was there for me. He was the only one who cared.

I had this dream after having a review with my treatment team where I felt like no one except my support worker was listening to me and they all wanted me to do things that they thought were for the best, rather than what I wanted.

It's true in reality that my support worker is there for me more than other people, even though I don't have a lot of contact with him. I can phone him and he'll always get back to me and if I need to see him he'll make the effort to find time for me. The whole organisation that he works for are very supportive, I have never met more kind people who try to understand what other people are going through.

I'm very grateful that I have this support as it has helped me immensely on my recovery journey. I hope that other people have someone in their lives who supports them in this way.

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