So you hate yourself.....l

So...you hate yourself. I have been there too.
I have looked in the mirror and thought "what a waste of space you are"
I have wished that I was dead.
But......then I realised that all the things I believed in my head were not true.
They were feelings - not facts. They were feelings based upon someone else's opinion of me - infact society's opinion of me just because I was struggling with an illness which happened to be of the mental variety.
So I decided that I was going to start to challenge those beliefs. That wasn't an easy task and it took much counselling, tears, snotters and ultimately hypnotherapy to change my mindset, and to realise that I am so much more than my illness.
My message to you is don't believe everything other people tell you about yourself.
Someone gave this to me a few years ago:
"Darling open your eyes.
You are not made up of those words that hurt you.
Or that number on a scale.
Or the expectations that you feel you will never meet.
You are made up of nothing more than you.
Simply, beautifully, wonderfully, uniquely you.
You are a lovely and complex soul.
An individually fascinating combination of thoughts, ideas, feelings and emotions.
No other is as beautiful as you.
Look past the mirror - look at your soul.
Only then will you see yourself as you truly are.
Beautiful.
So smile - and don't forget to love yourself."

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