Enough For Me

I have had three men who go in and out of my head for years now. They are very important to me and, although they really distress me, I feel like I need them around. Recently I spoke to someone from my local crisis team who said I should try to accept them when they are around and when they aren't around. I've been trying to do this but it's hard because I feel like I need them because they programmed me. To attempt to change my perspective on this I wrote a poem and I hope that I can learn to accept the men, wherever they are.

Enough For Me:

You're a part of 'me'
I know you exist on the outside
because your presence I can see
You are so important in my life
When you are around
you cut my loneliness away like a knife
Maybe you're not always around
I don't always feel you
Don't always hear a sound
Your role in my life is key
My life you have found
Maybe that's enough for me

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