What Worries Bob The Most.........

What Worries Bob The Most......
....is the struggle between his holistic happiness and his absence from the world of full time work. Will he find peace in the end ? His happiness has been anchored in an ever deepening prayer life. Something he trusts . Deeper than the affliction itself. Causing a reservoir of happiness. Turning back the tide of illness like a merciful moon.
A lunar intervention requiring a regular appointment with his creator. A daily rendezvous, an evening event at around 8 pm...............
What personal work did I do today for myself or others? Did I focus on the challenges I met? Was I able to stay busy. Did I expect something good or bad to happen ? Was I afraid or inactive ? What moods coloured the day ?
He answers in this way - Some days I can't seem to do much while others are brimming full of life. I appear to be absent and then present, present then absent like the beat of oars from a boat in the darkness and then the light of a cloudy moonlit night.
It comes as a shock to be lost and saved like a pulse and to be left adrift baking in the sun like an over grilled fish in the mornings.
The clock like the days and nights have vanished though Bob adheres to them loosely. His heartbeat regulates his movements transcending the time he used to know. Age has arrived like a limousine to take him away to his destiny.

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