Through the spin cycle

I dont feel quite right today. So here I am again... I have an art class to attend and Im struggling with getting my act together.  I feel like im not part of anything or anyone.  This distance will keep me at home if I dont push myself through it.  I feel like no one cares wether I attend or not - I will not be missed.  People are queueing up to get into these classes, perhaps I should give someone else the place?  If I do then I miss out.  My recovery will go backwards instead of forwards.  I need this class to help myself.  Why do I feel like I dont deserve it?  My thoughts around this make me believe that I dont appreciate what I have.  Its a good class and I always enjoy it and feel much better afterwards.  I dont belong there, no one wants me there.  There are other people more needy than me.  My life depends on this class.  My family want dinner tonight and Im expected to make it, wether I want to or not....or thats the way it feels to me...There is so much to do and I'm struggling just thinking about it!  I think I will try and go to my art class and not think about all of the above.  Switch off - and -switch on...I love art, it helps me....

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Lucky to be alive

Please Note: This piece contains references to suicide and abuse

My morning ritual commences - cuppa tea, roll up and head space zooming all over the universe.  Today, for the first time I can remember 'lucky to be alive' was where my spaceship lan...

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Sharing the secret

Please note: this story references self harm.

My daughter discovered for the first time that I have used self harm as an coping mechanisim.  It all happened yesterday when she noticed a scar on my arm.  Her eyes widened and she asked me "Is that an accident or was it intenti...

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Why?

Please note: this story references self harm.

I've started checking in on write to recovery in the mornings.  Sometimes I have no words to share and when this happens I read the stories shared by my fellow writers until the floodgates creak open....I cut myself last ni...

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Turn round and face it

Turn round and face itThat first bottle of cider set me free, it was as though a button had been pressed in my heart and all the hurt, pain and worry simply blew away like a leaf in the wind.  It was the solu...

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vaginismus

argh!feel worried as I read more

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unforgiving

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