Please note: this story references self harm.
My daughter discovered for the first time that I have used self harm as an coping mechanisim. It all happened yesterday when she noticed a scar on my arm. Her eyes widened and she asked me "Is that an accident or was it intentional?" It all happened so quickly, my mind racing, reality, cover up, reality cover up? I looked deep into her eyes and decided to tell her the truth. I felt at 28 she is old enough to hear it. This is one of the most difficult things I have had to tell my child. She burst into tears and cried for a long time and while she was crying she told me how much she loved me and how important I am in her and her sisters lives. She was so insightful around this issue, I became humbled. We hugged for ages and she cried for me, for herself and for her sisters. "What would we do without you mum?" My heart breaking for putting my child in this position and I don't know what to do to make it better. I don't know how ths will pan out and I definitely do not want my children worrying about me in this way. So far so good even though I feel weird about letting this secret out. We have managed to chat about it and reassure one another. She promised she would not tell the world and I assured her that I am pro-active in my recovery and with the help of Write to Recovery platform I am getting better.
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