SUNday Wah!

SUNday
Wah!
went through my work and 
couldn't find
two paintings
which go with another four
which are all about HIM
and the break-up
got upset
and started crying
and got angry
why don't I have storage space?
why don't I have a studio
why do I give my pictures away?

SAT
In the open studios
people were selling their paintings
or £2-3000!
why not me?
I'm just as good!

Got there late-ish 5pm- onwards
saw HIS daughter
and panicked
and crossed the road to avoid her
also saw the cafe lady, and avoided her too
(she used to see me with HIM)

there were
less picture-making artists
more crafty ones

wanted to see HIM from a distance
looked down from the balconies
at the street
he must've left early
DAMN HIM!

MON
today 
hot and humid
take pictures in for the exhibition
found the two that I lost
but there are still others missing
art class was busy, with lots of people
It's my one sanctuary
I take one painting home
that I had sold to my cousin

SUN
Told M that I wanted to leave him
and be an artist
that I'm sick of my life 
I later calmed down
and we went out to the park
together
He told me that he doesn't get much 
for playing his music
that he does it for pleasure

somedays I feel trapped
I want a different life
a life where I can do as I want
and I don't have to please anyone
but me

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