the strong woman

today
Word seems to get around
about people
at the centre
A certain person is argumentative
and everyone seems to know about it

Went to yoga this afternoon
and avoided
that person
that people told me stuff about
I slowed down
I ate my sandwich and drank my tea
on a convenient bench
in the street

I try to get along with most people
I also want to protect myself

I did say hello
but we never really chat

women are strange creatures!

men seem to be more straightforward 

yesterday
went to the beach
with M
was a fun day
and spontaneous (slightly)
Well, I like to plan things
but not be to rigid

NOW
so tempted to see HIM
this weekend
would like to play the strong woman
but know I'm not really strong underneath
what was I thinking, getting involved with HIM?
what am I trying to prove?
I guess I like to be in control of the situation
He told me that he wanted to be friends
to say hi
when we bump into eachother
somehow, I can't see that happening!

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