lovely HIMself

Sunday
 

M took 2 sleeping tablets by mistake
last night

he started to panic
and I kept telling him to shut-up
and stop worrying so much

I told him to sleep with me
but then, he made too much noise snoring-
so I went in the other room

and sorted through my pictures

my god!

I have so many

he is now going to de-tox clinic
am fed-up and wish I could do something
to help

Monday

I went to my art class and tried
to paint my tree again

Get distracted by chat and tea and biscuits

but I have so much work

that I don't know what to do with it

we go to a cafe and chat after

I'm part Italian

A is from Japan

S is from the West Indies

M is from South America

we talk a lot about children, food,

and our next exhibition

 

Tuesday
 

No one at computer centre
don't know how to
delete
rude comments
on FaceBook

 

I walked past the studio
where my ex-lover works
I guess I was hoping to spot him

this weekend is open studios
there is the temptation
to pop in
and snatch a glance

of HIM

I'm looking at lovely HIMself
on video

SIGH!
so handsome when younger
still handsome now, I guess

Wednesday

went to drama
and skipped the drums-

sorry hippy ladies!

(I didn't go to the drumming session)

at drama

there was lots of laughter
and hugs

and it was good to act silly

hmm...

I still daydream about HIM!

will try to avoid the studios

but I know that I will never be completely
free of HIM

 

 

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