I am Recovering!

I've only just begun thinking around the idea that I'm actually in recovery.  Being around others with mental health issues and talking has brought this to the forefront of my mind.  It gives me a reason to not give up.....the idea that I AM RECOVERING! It feels good  seeing this in print,  it makes my recovery more of a reality...I've felt like this for so long, I can't remember what it feels like to be anything other than where Im at right now.  What I do know is that I have been taking steps to feel better.  The steps I've been taking so far:

1.  Attending hospital appointments

2. Going to art groups weekly

3. Being compassionate to myself as much as possible and then pushing it a bit further

4. listening to music

5. Getting out for a wee walk 

These 5 things have impacted my general wellbeing.  Sometimes I really have to push myself with every fibre of my being, but, once I have, it does feel better for a while.....

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Through the spin cycle

I dont feel quite right today. So here I am again... I have an art class to attend and Im struggling with getting my act together.  I feel like im not part of anything or anyone.  This distance will keep me at home if I dont push...

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Lucky to be alive

Please Note: This piece contains references to suicide and abuse

My morning ritual commences - cuppa tea, roll up and head space zooming all over the universe.  Today, for the first time I can remember 'lucky to be alive' was where my spaceship lan...

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Sharing the secret

Please note: this story references self harm.

My daughter discovered for the first time that I have used self harm as an coping mechanisim.  It all happened yesterday when she noticed a scar on my arm.  Her eyes widened and she asked me "Is that an accident or was it intenti...

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I'm trying

Currently on antidepressants to deal with the anxiety. No difference so far (day 4), and having some side effects. Hopefully will see some light soon as I'm willing to stick to them and give them a chance. Although I've thought about le...

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Surviving to thriving and back to surviving...

I thought I was thriving. And this is good, right?  No, apparently "it's concerning" and indicates that I am 'vulnerable' in some way.I'm sorry that I don't fit into your expectations...

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STRENGTHS

 I've never identified with having strengths.  I'm so busy surviving that there isn't much time to stop and take stock of how I've managed in any given situation.  I usually feel a great sense of ...

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