4pm on a Monday and Still in My PJ's

I can't seem to settle myself today.  My anxiety is progressively increasing for no apparent reason.  I tried some drawing to still myself but I couldnt concentrate, so I moved onto practicing singing a song I've grown to like, alas this just made me more anxious and jumpy. I went for a nap, the quiet only lasted as long as the nap. I thought about phoning Samaratins but I dont feel like talking. So here I am at Write to Recovery website jotting down how I'm feeling with the hope that I can "ground" myself enough to achieve even my daily ablutions.  Its 4pm on a Monday, most folk have done a full day of something or other and here I am in my pj's, unwashed! This is the point where I might start my negative self talk, but for today at least I will resist and instead show myself some compassion.  

1. I managed to explore ways to help me feel more comfortable in my own skin.

2. I resisted the negative self talk that is so damaging.

3. I decided to be kind to myself by letting compassion wash over my being every time I hear negative self         talk and for now its working. Yay!

4. I allowed myself the space to post this.

It feels liberating writing and sharing this with the thought of someone somewhere  might read this and relate. This makes me feel less alone...Im off to brush my teeth and wash my face.

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