O To Pursue The New

Pursuing new things is exhausting and taxes the emotions of my illness. I am aware that others may always be doing and trying new things. I can not keep up with them.

I would be happy with a few new things every now and then. I would be happy with the same old things for a long time. Never getting bored.

I know the modern world does not work like this. It is always pursuing the next new thing at a faster rate than I can cope with.

I know I need to be upbeat and pro-active even when I think that it is all too greedy, selfish and wasteful. Modern life is built on a quest for forging so many new things as quickly as it can.

I am urged to be grateful to it. I understand this newness is the drive and mechanism of the economy. Yet it drives me crazy.

I get the aspiration but I do not agree with its pace. I want it to stop so that the rest of the world can catch up and enjoy its fruits gracefully.

The global economy is yet to be established fairly for everyone. I believe it is a work in progress for humanity to accomplish and is conceivable in the first place.

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