Flowers

Like the changing flowers

Metamorphosise

So do the mood swings in my mind

 

On the good days I am the sunflower

satisfied in sunlight and content with just being

existing

taking up space in the world

letting myself be alive and appreciative of what I am surrounded by

...

On the bad days I am the thistle

closed up in a tight bud

Dont look at me, don't stand near me 

I can't risk showing you my hurt and vulnerability 

​​​You try to help me - reach out your hands to protect me

but my spikes sting your skin, my self hatred consumes me 

I crave connection but it scares me​, ​​​​this pain is so lonely 

I play dead to prevent me from withering completely

...

Let me hibernate until I can think clearly again

​​​

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