every time we meet- she wants more and more from me

hmmm...
have problems with nutty ms p

sent her an email today-
as I felt sorry for her
M has upset her
I think he was rude

he told her

that she can still see me

but I have to look after him!

he has no business

saying that to her- or anyone!

BUT
she did ask me to do her shopping for her
at KT
that time I met her for tai chi
and when I texted her
and said

'Sorry can't come'

to the Jazz thingy

on Friday 

a few weeks ago

she sent me 2 texts
offering alternatives!

BUT

I don't want to fall out

as I will see her at art
every Monday
and I don't want a bad atmosphere

I have trouble being assertive
and I find her too bossy

M is also bossy
but I can get round him
and I love him too
ms p I don't love!

Yesterday,

there was a mix-up

we had arranged to meet

in the park cafe

BUT 


ms p had left her bag at home
lady b had left her mobile in the toilet!

I had left mine at home!
ms p told me off for not bringing mine!
lady b didn't come as she felt tired

I must have waited for an hour (?)

I think

BUT


it was a nice day, so it wasn't so bad

then, ms p appeared
just as I was leaving
I was kind of glad, I guess

BUT

I felt guilty
as I've been saying bad things about her

(to M)
the guilt is doing me no good

I guess I could just be friendly
I feel that she is needy
and every time we meet
she wants more and more from me

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