Please Note: This story references sexual abuse and trauma.
I feel so angry with myself for being weak and allowing myself to be manipulated and used and question myself daily why did I let this happen? Am I so desperate for love I seek it without thinking about the consequences of putting myself at risk? Especially when I am vulnerable and too trusting and others pray on this and draw you in to them resulting in you not really being yourself. At times you feel threatened and look for escapsim and can see none. Why did I allow these people to manipulate and take me out of my comfort zone sexually? Did I not understand from my past how easily you could be groomed for things you had never contemplated before and when you did not want to do what they wanted you were made to feel guilty. Taking pictures of sexual activity of others making this into a video to send to others to arrange a gangbang when you specifically said NO!!
Unfortunately my anger has made me feel so unhappy & worthless it is affecting all areas of my life with my mood being very low at times. I feel as though I am continually moaning and people soon lose interest in listening to you as everyone has stuff to deal with.
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