Bohemian Anxiety

I gave up my comfort zone,

To the Yell of the world,

I felt I had no right to it,

I risked my mental health,

 

I listened to its schmooze,

I heard every pitch,

My 'accusers' descended,

To assure me I was a lunatic,

 

Do this, Do that,

Be this, Be that,

Or you'll be too lazy,

To carve out an existence,

To earn your precious gravy,

 

Voices, a pack of panthers,

With the charm and guile of snakes,

Boom to my schizophrenia,

With an orchestra of 'hate',

 

Yell, the Hell out of you,

Was the medicine prescribed,

By the demon of sanity,

The Prefect of human pride,

 

I dimly understand that hearing,

Can assault the fault of my sensitivity,

Triggering a eulogy of nightmares,

From the depths of a fragile, wounded humanity,

 

So appreciate what you have, I pray,

Instead of listening to them,

Perhaps the pressure is greater

On that which thinks you Alien.

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