today went to talk

today went to talk

went to talk about healthy relationships
what are your expectations?
noted that I feel other people
expect too much from me
and feel pressure to please
everyone
feel over-burdened
and become resentful
mary jane expected me to do her shopping
freddy bear complained about the dirty sink
feel angry
feel guilty

got chatty
with two women there
pinched some sandwiches
from the people at the conference next door to us

that was cheeky!
also, had hot chocolate at the cafe in the park ( I paid for it-really)

yes, I did!

pretty shit week-

M complaining about his shoulder pain
and money problems

Me losing it
and getting upset

but today was fun
and had a giggle

and Weds
had special event
for International Women's Day

in local centre

there was

Bollywood dancing
poetry reading
lots of great food!
won a prize in the raffle

was a bit of an up and down week

want to try to keep a journal, of some sort

not sure if I want to stay friends with mary jane, or not

is she good for me?

am not sure

miss so much having a close friend

I was close friends with someone from work

for over 20yrs

then she wrote to me

and told me not to contact her

that hurt a lot

I was also dumped

by my lover

that was about 5yrs ago

relationships

are vital

we need people

like we need food

or air

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