I Am And I Am Not

How do I manage fluctuating strength? By routinely testing my can and can't do capacity. I try to maintain a steady well-being under varying degrees of stress. When, then, is it safe to unlock my will power?

It takes discernment, judgement, intuition and timing. I need to apply myself well. Then rest again. Quality not quantity of life experience.

Thankfully, this experience allows me to identify with anyone who witnesses the florid trials of mental health throughout the year or during the commercial hype of a Yule-Tide.

It is OK not to be joyful. It is OK to be joyful. It is always up and down.

I always remember the mentally fit whose healthier rhythms support the immediate world around us like a miracle.

So that we may be undivided in spirit with a graceful devotion and a daily witness. Even if there is no appetite for desolate emotions. Hope and faith can begin to function and grow in the darkest places of the mind if I can only allow and bare it.

Then I might have understanding and compassion on the enduring mystery of health, itself. Rather than accepting it as a cruel game of 'the haves' and 'the have-nots'. Which would be dangerous and cast me into jeopardy.

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