Back In The Room

Ground Yourself. 

Back in the Room.

4-7-8.

Breathe and 

continue. 

 

What was that like for you?

Time stops.

I can no longer disconnect

from my difficulties.

I can no longer disconnect myself 

from the words that 

tumble out of my mouth.

A Voice. Aloud with

Peace and Pain

Intertwined identity.

 

I sweat out confessions that unravel from my mind.

My throat is a clogged up drain

of memories I would rather forget.

I speak. 

I remember. 

I regret it.

Legacy of Altas in my blood

I carry round guilt as my rucksack.

Until Now

Repenting sins

with pen and paper in hand

was always easier -

It meant I didn’t have 

to hear my voice,

hear my regurgitated shame

pleading for you 

not to think less of me.

 

My hand writes to make 

a safety net. 

Somewhere to contain the messy parts of a

 Past 

I can no longer disconnect from.

The anaesthetic has gone.

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