The Avalanche

I write it out, I scrunch it up, I throw it into the corner.
It doesn't matter.
I write it out, I scrunch it up, I throw it into the corner.
It's nothing.
I write it out, I scrunch it up, I throw it into the corner.
It's not important.
I write it out, I scrunch it up, I throw it into the corner.
It can wait for another day.
I write it out, I scrunch it up, I throw it into the corner.
I'll let it out when I feel stronger.
I write it out, I scrunch it up, I throw it into the corner.
No one will care anyway.
I write it out, I scrunch it up, I throw it into the corner.
I don't want to waste their time.
I write it out, I scrunch it up, I throw it into the corner.
You never hear me anyway.
I write it out, I scrunch it up, I throw it into the corner.
I don't have a right to feel that way.
I write it out, I scrunch it up, I throw it into the corner.
I don't want to upset anyone.
I write it out, I scrunch it up, I throw it into the corner.
Maybe I don't even care about it any more.
I write it out, I scrunch it up, I throw it into the corner.
Why would anyone want to read it anyway.
I write it out, I scrunch it up, I throw it into the corner.
Whatever I write is worthless.
I write it out, I scrunch it up, I throw it into the corner.
I can't express how much this hurts anyway.
I write it out, I scrunch it up, I throw it into the corner.
No one will ever understand me.
I write it out, I scrunch it up, I throw it into the corner.
It's too personal anyway.
I write it out, I scrunch it up, I throw it into the corner.
It doesn't sound right the way I write it.
I write it out, I scrunch it up, I throw it into the corner.
It's just me, I'm not right.
I write it out, I scrunch it up, I throw it into the corner.
Worthless.
I write it out, I scrunch it up, I throw it into the corner.
Stupid.
I write it out, I scrunch it up, I throw it into the corner.
Pathetic
I write it out, I scrunch it up, I throw it into the corner.
Little.
I write it out, I scrunch it up, I throw it into the corner.
Me.
I write it out, I scrunch it up, I throw it into the corner.
And then the avalanche of paper falls,
The avalanche of failed attempts
and unexpressed emotions
and self loathing topples
and tumbles all around
me and I am
trapped,
lost in
IT.

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