Sleepless nights

So today, I took another step in the right direction! 

I went on a date, I pushed past my aniexty of meeting new people and actually went on a date! This might not seem like a big step but I have arranged many dates and then cancelled last minute as I just couldn’t cope with it or even worse just not turned up due to a panic attack! Well today I actually went, and it was good 😊.

Yet, I am still overthinking meaning another sleepless night! Shock. Not. 

What is my problem it went well! 

Well currently going through my mind is ... 

what if he doesn’t like me? 

Does he just want sex? 

Is he gonna turn into a dickhead? 

Im a VIRGIN!!!

Should I tell him? 

I want to loose it now! It’s been too long, feel like it’s past it’s expiry date. What happens if I get to 40 and I still haven’t lost it? I know I am a long way off, 20 years to be exact but still!! 

This quote from greys anatomy comes to mind, the bit about April is me currently but only 20🙈

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