Procuring A Vocabulary

Very often in the early stages people did not know what I was talking about. It took time but eventually a vocabulary which illustrated my mental health condition emerged. It is important that it did so.

By choosing words and creating definitions of my own I gained back some control. Where by I could build a robust bridge to reality. With clear, accurate images depicting the state of my mental health. So I could explain what was happening to me.

Words and definitions which will tell the whole story. Gained from efforts of insight, meditation, contemplation, prayer, exercise, work, life, experience and creativity.

I have had to learn to speak about it using an accurate array of words and definitions I feel are true.

So I could gain help and understanding from those around me.

Communication patiently built out of a bomb shell. Individually tailored to suit my interpretation of the diagnosis. Individual truth from an individual's experience. A hand up the ladder from the abyss pulled up by my own bootstraps.

Rights exercised to the point of a recovery. Fruits of a labour of honesty, clarity and well being.

A life's work.

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