• Grinch

    I am so annoyed.How can hospitals mess up so badly? How can they make one person go through 3 heart operations in four weeks? How can he keep getting infected?Why can't he be the happy, healthy man he should be. Why is life so cruel.It is Christmas for goodness sake, feels more like the Grinch stole Christmas.Let's hope the New Year is better!

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  • Abandoned

    My mum moved to Canada roughly four years before I was born. She met a man. They got married and along came me. The truth was he was a horrible man. She was on her own in Canada, no family there. He was all she had until I was born. He didn't even go with her when I was born, she did it all by herself. He never wanted anything to do with me. She ...

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    abuse,
    childhood,
    scared,
    pathetic
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  • Panic Attacks

    They started with a bang. Literally. My heart pounded, I felt like I was going to faint, and I sat, shaking, sure that I was having a heart attack. I was 16 experiencing my first panic attack. I don't know what triggered it, I was in college in a lesson minding my own business then BAM I wouldn't breathe.In that first month I think I must have had around two panic attacks a day. ...

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    panic;,
    fear,
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  • Surviving...ish

    I think surviving is what I am doing right now. It wasn't always this way all the time but now I feel like I am sufforcating, drowing in a pit of dispair. I have no way to get to the surface. No way to get out of this dark hole that my life is becoming.Still trying to be the adult, trying to survive at work. Trying not to get distracted but everything is a distraction ...

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  • Sad or Pathetic?

    Do you ever feel like you are stuck? Like everyone around you is doing so well in life and succeeding in everything they do? I am in a job I used to LOVE. Like seriously I was one of those people that was so happy with my job and life. Then at some point maybe even before my accident, my life hit a wall. \ Now don't get me wrong, I am still happy I ...

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  • Feelings

    I think I am crazy, like not bat shit crazy but maybe mentally unstable. Wow, even typing that seems alien to me. I am paranoid and jealous beyond belief. My poor boyfriend has to put up with way to much being with me. Maybe it is his fault for getting involved with someone like me. Maybe it is my fault for not telling him how worthless I feel all the time. Sometimes I question our ...

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    replaceable,
    unimportant,
    depressed,
    worthless,
    sad
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  • I want to be me

    I want to be confident, I used to be that girl. Back in high school and college I was so cocky and small-minded that nothing bothered me. I was confident in myself and roughly confident in how I looked (lets be realistic no one is confident with how they look ever day). Then after two years of college I was kicked out for being too cocky. Within two weeks I had four jobs to support ...

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    depression,
    happy,
    feelings,
    me
  • ADHD, PTSD, ANXIETY

    I am really struggling at the moment, I feel so down.Lately my anixety has been really, really bad. Everything is setting me off into a blur of not being able to breathe, not being able to see straight. Not being able to cope. People are convinced I have ADHD as well. Do you have any idea how it feels having people judge me and say I have this problem and that problem. No one understands what it ...

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    Drowning,
    help
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  • alone forever?

    I am tired. So damn tired all the time. Life seems hard, my eyes and brain ache for the need to be good enough, to be clever and wise, to experience the happiness others must thrive on. When I was 14years old I was in a terrible place. I was taking drugs, a lot of drugs. I was in a bad crowd but I had a lot of 'friends'. they weren't real friends though because ...

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  • The Accident

    Please Note: This piece contains references to suicidal feelings In six days it will be three months since I had my accident. the evening started as normal. I finished work at 5pm on the dot and went outside into my beautiful 'purple pocket rocket' basically into my Purple Peugeot 108. I loved that car so much. I had finally managed to treat myself to a new car in March 2016 and then my car was ...

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    depression?