• FD 18

    Fathers DayWhat a wayTo spend with my sonAnd his beautiful mum To wake up in the sunshineAnd realise what is mineTo be loved by them bothMore than Blaine loves toast We went for brunch at PosadoniaAnd it rained like it does in CaledoniaThe streets were filled with deep puddlesAnd in shop doorways we would huddle Uo to the bakery for some crepes and chocolate cakeSome chocolate mint ice-cream Blaine would takeTeasing me with his thoughts of sharingBut instead ...

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    Tags:
    surviving,
    Hope; Thriving
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  • Hope

    What is life without hopeIt's like a shower without soapWithout hope there is nothingWe all need to want something What is life without hopeIt's like the sea without boatsWithout hope there is nothingWe all need to love something What is life without hopeIt's like freezing in winter without a coatWithout hope there is nothingWe all need to need something What is life withour hopeIt's like elections without a voteWithout hope there is nothingWe all need to stand for ...

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    Hope
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  • Sometimes

    Sometimes it snows in May but summer always comesSometimes it feels like the world has stopped but it always turnsSometimes it feels like the mountain can't be climbedBut Everest is conquered all the time Sometimes it feels like hope and despairSometimes i never want to go thereSometimes i think i will never overcomeBut men with no legs can still run Sometimes it feels like the sun will never riseSometimes it feels like there's no hope in my ...

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    Hope
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  • Boat

    Fishing with Peter early on ThursdayWhat a beautiful sunrise to start the dayI sat admiring the view on the pierTrying to contain my excitement and fear The sunrise was such a beautiful sightIt must give hope at the end of each nightEverything was quiet and calmIt's like a peaceful shot in the arm The sea was as still as iceA view i simply can't describeMoving at speed along the surfaceAmazement written all over my face Stopping to throw in ...

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    Tags:
    Hope;,
    Discovery
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  • Devils Chase

    Please Note: This piece has dark themes

    Every day i run the Devils ChaseI stare into his dark and evil faceHe stares back with his empty eyesTelling me 'it's your time to die' I run and run but can never escapeI'm always within his sight, his reach.....and gapeHe pulls me back by the shirt tailInto every disaster and trauma without fail Making me feel my time has comeKnowing that the devil i cannot outrunThis is it now he has me in his graspI feel ...

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    Tags:
    fear,
    survival,
    panic;
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  • Real To Me

    My reality is different from anyone else'sWe're all the centre of our own universe'sIn the middle of our own little bubblesDealing with our fears and troubles I know me but don't know youYou may think you know me tooBut i know i won't let you inFor fear you see all my sins There are too many to rememberYet some burn like hot embersEvery day upon my soulKnowing each one takes it's toll But i know what makes me ...

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    Tags:
    Hope;
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  • Ascent

    Each day i wake at the foot of the mountainWhen alli want is to drink from life's fountainKnowing i'm going to climb through rocks and rubbleTrying to conquer my fears and trouble Each night i reach the mountain's peakBut of my troubles i did not speakTo speak of them would make them realThen people would judge me and how i feel The ascent takes all day and nightBut inside my head it's a continual fightI keep repeating ...

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    survival
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  • Forever Cynic

    Diagnosed with Complex PTSD, now i know why i've been me.Living all these years with my torture, never knowing if it was nature or nurture. Hoping that i'm still seen as a man, but knowing you choose not to understand.Intent to punish and not to care, ignoring all the years i've been there. Giving you everything for 7 years, blood and sweat despite my tears. You have a real lack of understanding, why on myself i'm so demanding. After 7 years ...

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    Tags:
    survival,
    Recovery,
    Pain
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  • Ember

    Please Note: This piece contains references to suicide

    I'm so filled with this sorrow, can't get through today, can't bare to think about tomorrow.This pain, this pain, this pain, so indescribable i can't explain.Not part of this world nothing seems real, so numb with pain, i just can't feel.I'm the loneliest guy on this planet, this can't beb all to life....can it?Decision made my path is chosen, my time on earth will soon be frozen.To those i've known i'll be a memory, except ...

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    Tags:
    Pain,
    Despair
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  • The Final Chime

    Please Note: This piece contains references to suicide

     i just want to stop this pain, it falls on me like endlees rain.Why why why each day i cry, so much so my tears are dry.All i want is joy and gladness, i've lived too long in the shadows of sadness.All i feel inside is numb, knowing that i will succumb.My pain just never goes away, i realise now it's here to stay.No matter what i say, think or do, I'll never be normal unlike you.I've ...

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    Tags:
    Pain
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