• Tattoos

    For the past 2 weeks iv been waiting for this day. The day I get my dagger tattoo on my thigh. It doesn't sound like a very feminine tattoo but it is as it has wings on it and a scroll that reads "every scar tells a story". I have 10 other tattoos and all of varying pain. My first tattoo I got just over 10 years ago and it hurt badly, but maybe it ...

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    Tattoo,
    Sore,
    Self-Harm,
    Pain
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  • Charity and cycle

    Please note: this piece contains references to self-harm. So i havnt been on here for so long but i think its time i started using it again. i need somewhere to ramble and rant without being judged. I was tidying out my cupboard and came across the leaflet for this site and forgot all about it. I run a charity called "The Little Box of Distractions" and it helps by sending out a free box ...

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    Positive,
    Little Box of Distractions,
    Support,
    Charity,
    Cycle
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  • Left to Dwindle

    Yet again i havnt been on here for a while. Mainly i feel this page has become something thats forgotten about. All that time and effort into the design etc and i feel it could have gone places a lot quicker than it has. I would like to encourage my users of my mental health drop in to "Write to Recovery" and hopefully get some posted up here. This could have been so much more! ...

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  • Sarah Millican

    Comedy!! Last night i went to the Clyde Auditorium to see Sarah Millican. She was absolutely amazing. I love when she gets the audience to participate. Her jokes were so funny and i was laughing all the way through. I went with my cousins wife and we were both in tears. The man that was sat next to me never laughed once, he didnt clap or even break a smile. Something tells me that seat ...

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    Love,
    Comedy,
    Laugh,
    Sarah Millican,
    Funny
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  • Disorganised Mess

    If I have been away from home for any length of time like if I have been at Shelleys for a few days, or even if I go shopping and come home with a lot of bags I get so agitated and anxious and can stress out about the "mess" and "disorganisation" of the house. I cant settle until the house is tidy but in my mind there's always something that needs done.

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    Anxiety,
    Mess,
    Stress,
    Shopping
  • Spring Garden

    The weather is getting better so I cant wait to do more of my garden. I am going to be painting tyres to use as planters for a dark and dingy corner of my garden that I absolutely hate. I was to brighten the garden up. Its taken me 4 years to get to this point and I still have quite a long way to go. Its just funds that's stopping me really but when ...

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    Tyres,
    Holiday,
    Funds,
    Paint,
    Plant
  • Cancelled Plans

    I hate when people let me down, especially at the last minute. It can really trigger me and make me feel abandoned. I suppose I am not as bad now as I used to be. I used to be quite self destructive when someone let me down but I have learnt how to cope a bit better and not to take things so personally. After all I cancel on people at the last minute too. ...

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    Plans,
    Abandonment,
    Destructive,
    Coping,
    Self-Harm
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  • My Westies

    As much as my 2 westies are a handful I love them to bits. They always have to be near me. When I sit on the couch the 2 of them lie next to me even though there is another comfier 3 seater at the other side of the livingroom. If I moved to the 3 seater they would follow. They rely on me to feed them and let them out for the toilet and ...

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    Happy,
    Content,
    Westies,
    West Highland Terrier
  • One look at a westie and they make you do anything

    I was in town and the PDSA were there trying to get people to sponsor an animal. I normally don't have time for speels and like to do things in my own time, but maybe it was the lovely weather or the fact I had just treated myself to 2 pairs of jeans that made me stop and listen to this mans speel. He didn't ramble for long but the whole time I was thinking ...

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    Love,
    Westie,
    Dog,
    West Highland Terrier,
    PDSA
  • Meeting new people

    Today I went to my first ever Write to Recovery meeting. I didn't think about the fact I would be in a group of new people until I got to the door of the building. I wondered about the people that I would meet and what they would be like. I felt welcome when I arrived and took my seat. As the room filled up with a small number of people I found myself wondering ...

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    Recovery,
    Website,
    Meeting,
    Write,
    Friends
  • Awake

    Why am I still awake? Im normally sound asleep at this time. Im missing my girlfriend but she said I should go stay tonight but I've just not really moved from here all evening. I also had thoughts of self harming but as I said I havnt really moved. I cant be bothered doing anything. maybe its the small amount of cocodamol I'v taken that's keeping me awake but also making me tired and feel ...

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    Awake,
    Cocodamol,
    Tablets,
    Sleep,
    Tired
  • 2.30am Ramblings

    Its 2.30am and I am awake. I havn't seen this time much in the past year. Since getting out of the psych ward last July and given new meds my sleep has rarely been a problem. I have a blocked nose which has bunged up my sinuses and I feel like I have a cold. I am at my girlfriends house and have just had to get up and go through Into the living room ...

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    Self-Harm,
    Hospital,
    Insomnia,
    Agitated,
    Ill
  • Today I Thrived not just survived

    Today I done a little more than survived, I thrived a little. I got up and had a shower so that is a good thing. I dropped my girlfriend off at the train station as she has work and I had plans to spend the day with my mum. I picked mum up at 1pm and we went to a café for lunch. We then went a drive to some stores looking for some plants ...

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    Plants,
    Thrive,
    Gardening,
    Girlfriend,
    Mum
  • Stupid Twitter

    Sometimes I wonder why I even bother with twitter. I have had a good day but there are people on there who just want to be bitchy. I am not a person to hold my tongue so I normally end up in a heated debate with someone. It frustrates me how the internet makes people so "brave" because they are behind a computer screen. I am the same online as I am offline and everyone ...

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    Anger,
    Bullying,
    Twitter,
    Confrontation
  • Self Concious

    As part of my life I have had to deal with people staring, pointing and whispering. This is something that can take A LOT of time to get used to. Some days I ignore it and other days I cant ignore it and it pulls me down so I hide away. The summer can be the worst. You see I am a self-harmer and I have visible scars on my arms. Some days when I ...

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    Love,
    Gay,
    People,
    Relationship,
    Lesbian
  • My Safe Place

    Today I am "surviving" I didn't sleep well last night which really isn't like me at all. I took my girlfriend to the dentist at 8am and when we came back we slept for another few hours before she had to get up for work. I was actually really looking forward to getting home. I just wanted a bit of time to myself, alone, in my own safe place. After all when you feel a ...

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    Clean,
    Borderline Personality Disorder,
    Housework,
    Home,
    Selfish
  • Relapse - (This story mentions self harm)

    Its 3.20am and I have found myself awake! AGAIN. I posted a few days ago saying that being up at this time isn't a normal thing for me but this time its a little different. You see it wasn't that I couldn't sleep. It was to do with Relapse. The past couple of days I have been quite low in the evenings and thought about harming but I was good not to do it. I ...

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    Recovery,
    Stitches,
    Self-Harm,
    Hospital,
    Relapse
  • Silence

    The house is empty, not empty meaning no furniture but empty as in there is one body less than there normally is, The house so quiet that I can hear the kids screaming and playing in the street, That 1 body less makes a difference, It is the difference between a house filled with laughter and smiles and a house that is quiet. The dogs have their presence but still it is quiet with them ...

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    Dog,
    Partner,
    Silence,
    Dogs,
    Work
  • Relief - SELF HARM CONTENT

    I always find that after I have self-harmed I feel refreshed. Like a big weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I don't expect people to understand but I'm sure people know what its like to have a headache? So lets say you have a headache, it hurts so bad but you know that taking 2 paracetamol will take the headache away. You decide you will fight it instead of taking the tablets to help, ...

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    Relief,
    Medication,
    Self-Harm,
    Tablets,
    Psychiatrist
  • Tiredness you got me!

    I wake in the morning and feel refreshed. I might not have plans but I hope something will inspire me and I will be off out to conquer the day, But you take over me, My body starts to feel heavy and my eyes struggle to stay opened. I yawn uncontrollably. Tiredness you are taking me down AGAIN. But I havnt been out yet, How can you possibly need to rest AGAIN? Are you telling ...

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    Routine,
    Awake,
    Living,
    Tiredness,
    Plans
  • Hunger Strikes

    I need a meal! I have eaten nothing but chocolate and rubbish for the past 10 days because that's all I have at home. My girlfriends home is exactly the same. We have eaten everything from the freezer and only have a few tins of soup in the cupboard. The funny thing is when you are short of cash or have none as a matter of fact you learn to live in a totally different ...

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    Help,
    Hunger,
    Food,
    Low,
    Sad
  • Quietly Does It

    I am normally a very sociable person and after the nerves of meeting people for the first time (in any situation) I am normally a cheery, bubbly person. The past 3 days I have noticed it more than anything but I just cant be bothered. On Tuesday at Derby training, although I wasn't skating I went along to help and an hour in and I left because I just didn't want to be around anyone ...

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    Mum,
    Positive,
    Group,
    Negative,
    Company
  • I Proposed

    Yesterday I proposed to my Girlfriend. She had a rough weekend and while I had so much time to spare while she was working I spent the weekend picking a ring and I picked it up on Sunday. I was planning on proposing to her next weekend when we go to the titanic exhibition in Belfast but I came up with a better idea. In my girlfriends kitchen she has a little chalk board that ...

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    Engagement,
    Yes,
    Propose,
    Proposal,
    Girlfriend
  • My Engagement Ring

    After proposing to my Girlfriend the other day and her saying yes. I gave her, her ring which she loved and really didn't expect it. We then booked our venue for our engagement party which is at the beginning of September. On Saturday my fiancée and I went to Belfast to the Titanic exhibition and on the boat on the way over my fiancée then produced a ring for me. I was so surprised and ...

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    Engagement,
    Recovery,
    Fiancee,
    Girlfriend,
    Day Trip
  • Jim Jam Day

    Here we go again. The only full day my fiancée and I have together and we spend the day asleep. I then think its a ruined day but my fiancée seems cool with it. She says its great to have a day in bed when shes been out working all week. I just think we could have been out and doing something even though its raining and the money we have has been appointed to ...

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    Engagement,
    Work,
    FedUp,
    Fiancee,
    Girlfriend
  • 10 years

    10 years ago today my gran passed away. My fiancée is working. She really just wants to be with me as she knows im a little under the weather. That is all I can say!

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    Low,
    Sad,
    Fiancee,
    Upset