Fighting self sabotage!
I hit success today, I managed to do what I set out to do. Even though my inner (shall we call it demon? Well it is that annoying - not a real voice by the way, just my subconscious)voice was screaming at me to give up because it's just too much hard work. I would call myself lazy, but it wouldn't be true it's more like a lack of self belief, inspiration and motivation really ...read more
I'm missing... can you please find me?
I suppose my stress and anxiety started at a young age, you see I was born into a mixed race/ mixed religion (or lack thereof really) family. Now that wouldn't have been a problem had I lots of friends in the same boat, but I was not given that stability and comfort. Nor was I given the comfort that many have sought through religion. So I was a small child with completely different parents and ...read more
It happens sometimes.
I am confident in my own worth and then I forget who I am. My value, my goals, my talent, my love all worthless without self belief. The things that I love I’m uncertain of, can I really write? Am I a good mother? Am I a good girlfriend and friend? Am I really good at my profession? Is my perception completely off? Do people actually like me? Is my poetry all that good? Always ...read more
Things that make me happy... don't always work.
What makes me happy? Well... how long is a piece of string? The answer... Long or short. There are lots of things that make me happy, but that's all well and good when we're in place that stress, anxiety and depression cannot touch us. I love to read and write it gives me great joy, but that doesn't work when I'm having a reading dry spell or writer's block hits me. I've begun at least ...read more